3.30.2009

16 Years Ago Today.....

....I became a Mommy.

I was young and scared. I was not quite 20 years old. After laboring all day and all night, I was told I would need a c-section. I was so frightened; I'd been afraid of having a c-section during my whole pregnancy. But at 1:16 am, Timothy arrived, all 8 lbs. 12 oz. of him, and my life has never been the same.

I never knew how much I could love someone until I gave birth to Tim. I loved him so much, it totally blew me away. It was terrifying and amazing and wonderful, all at the same time. Leaving him with a sitter for the first time was like ripping my heart out. I had to go back to work, but I refused to leave him with a sitter when he was sick, which unfortunately was frequent. He had chronic ear infections and asthma. Before long, I lost my job due to excessive absences. It was the best thing that could've happened, because that's when I became a SAHM. I loved spending every moment of every day with him. He was an amazingly intelligent child. He kept me entertained. His first sentence was when he was one year old: "I got a booger in my eye." He had his own special words for things, many of which we still use today. Once when he was about two years old, he was picking at his older cousin, and I called him an instigator. He immediately replied, "I'm not a instigator, I'm a FLORIDA Gator." He would just say things that would blow our minds! He was so loving as a small child. He would say "I love you." We'd say "I love you too." Then he'd say "I love you all your heart", which was his way of saying "I love you with all my heart". Once he said that in a store, and a lady said "What does HE want?" But he didn't want anything, he just liked to say that.

My song for him was "You are my Sunshine". I sang it to him all the time. And of course, our favorite book was "Love You Forever". One of his favorite things to do was to bring me paper and a pen and ask me to draw him something. He had utmost confidence in my artistic abilities; he thought I could draw absolutely anything. I did get pretty good at Barney and kitties!

So the years went by....he grew and he grew and he grew....and drove me crazy and made me want to run away. And the next second, he'd be sitting beside me with his head on my shoulder. He brings out the strongest emotions in me. He knows exactly how to push my buttons and can make me SO freaking mad! And in the next moment, he's telling me he loves me and I'm melting.

We have the same sense of humor and can really entertain each other. We took him to the Jeff Dunham show with us and we all had a blast. I love his sarcasm. It reminds me...of me!

Everyone tells you that kids grow up so fast, and you hear it so much that it just sort of goes in one ear and out the other. But it is so very true. He is sixteen years old today and I feel like he was two years old, I blinked, and now here we are. He's driving and in the 10th grade. He's talking about getting a job. Where did the time go? I can't answer that. But I know that I am very proud of him. He is smart, caring, compassionate, and fun to be around. He also makes me want to tear my hair out.

And I'm going to show him this post, and he'll roll his eyes, but he'll give me one of those half-grins, too. And he'll tell me he loves me like he always does. Who could ask for more?




"I'll love you forever,

I'll like you for always,

as long as I'm living

my baby you'll be."



~*Happy Birthday, Tim!*~

19 comments:

Tammie said...

happy birthday tim!!

my son and i used to read that book all the time too!!
gosh what a tearjerker it is...in a good way.

April said...

Boy, you sure know how to put a lump in my throat! That was beautifully written! I sang "You Are My Sunshine" all the time to my girls and "Love You Forever" was a favorite of ours!

Hope Tim has a very Happy Birthday! He is one lucky kid!

pb&j in a bowl said...

That was beautifully written.

Happy Birthday to Tim!

Far From Perfect said...

You are my sunshine- was always a nap time song. Which doesn't seem that long ago. I'm tearing up- nice post. Thank you.QP

Twisted Fencepost said...

Love this sweet post!
Happy Birthday, Tim!!!

Swirl Girl said...

How sweet!
Happy Birthday Tim!

Tara R. said...

Happy Birthday Tim! I didn't realize our boys were so close in age. My son will be 16yo at the end of June.

Karen in Texas said...

That is such a beautiful tribute to Tim Cyndy.

Aubrey said...

Lovely.

Happy Birthday to your Baby!

Where did the time go?

Hot Tub Lizzy said...

Happy Birthday Tim!!

And Happy Momiversary!!!!

Kel said...

Awe...

Happy Birthday Tim I hope you have an amazing year!
~K

blueviolet said...

OH my gosh, your song and book are the same as me!!! Both of them make me cry all the time!

OHmommy said...

Happy birthday Tim. I love that book Cyndy! It is the sweetest!

Lori said...

You made me cry!!! I know the feelings since my baby's bday is tomorrow and my oldest is going to be 15 in July. Jerry makes me the same way Tim makes you. I'm thinking it's because they are the ones that are so much like us! LOL Happy Birthday to Tim and Happy Birth Day to you!

Casey's trio said...

Happy birthday to your baby boy! We have that book too:)

Minxy Mimi said...

Aww, Happy Birthday, He sounds simply amazing!~

Tiaras and Tantrums said...

that was so very sweet - happy birthday to your little man

Keeper of the Skies Wife said...

Happy Birthday to Tim!!!!

You sure made me choke up....I love reading stories like this!!

Marivic_Little GrumpyAngel said...

Very sweet post! I also have a 16 year old son and we also have that book which we frequently read through the years, so that makes this post extra special for me. Sorry I'm late to the party :-) I have been very inconsistent with blogging and blog-surfing lately.