6.30.2011

If Heaven Wasn't So Far Away


The first time I heard this song, I was driving in my car. It was one of the rare times I was alone, and I was glad, because I literally had to park the car and just give in to the tears that were overtaking me.

I hope you'll listen to the song, but it's about what life would be like if heaven wasn't so far away. How we could pack up the kids to visit their grandparents, let long-lost relatives know how their children are doing here on earth, and how "losing them wouldn't be so hard to take, if heaven wasn't so far away".

All I could think of when I heard it was who I would visit, if heaven wasn't so far away.

The first person I thought of was John's firstborn son, who passed away shortly after his birth. I know that John would also want to visit his own father, who died about 10 years ago.

Then I thought of my children's paternal grandmother. My ex-husband's mother passed away in 1993. She gave birth to five boys, four who survived, and always wanted a daughter. When she passed away, she only had two grandsons. I know she would be so happy to meet my daughters, as well as her other granddaughters who have been born since she passed.

I would love to see my Uncle Gene again. He was my father's oldest brother, and almost like a father to him.

All of my grandparents have passed away, and I would love to visit them once more.

One of the hardest losses I've experienced is that of my cousin. He was in his 30's and had recently moved back to our town. He visited our family often. Then one night, he was tragically struck by a car and killed.

Another tragic loss was that of my mother's best friend, who took her own life. I wish she could see her daughter now that she's grown up, and I would love for her to meet her only grandson.

Honestly, there are so many more, so many people that I have loved and lost and would love to visit, even just one last time.

Who would you want to see, if heaven wasn't so far away?



7 comments:

Amy said...

Good post. We played that song at T's funeral last week.

This subject is still way too raw for me right now so I'll bow out of the rest of it. ; )

Brenda Susan said...

beautiful thought. My mom passed on May 19, 2011 and I keep wanting to call her or Facebook her about things my sons are doing that she would be proud of.

Kat said...

I heard that song the other day too. Beautiful song. I would love to see my dad again. And I would love to see my sister that I never got a chance to meet. Someday. :)

Mrs4444 said...

Sad, yet beautiful...I sure wish my friend Molly could see her son Ryan again, if only for a short visit.

Emily said...

Okay, you've gotten me weeping. Tweeting and FB ing. I don't like country music but this is too beautiful.

If I could only chose one it would be my father. The best daddy in the world who would have been the best grandfather too, if only he had had the chance. I miss him still every day.

Kimberly said...

This song is beautiful.

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Kim
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Debby@Just Breathe said...

Beautiful song. I may post this on my For Your Tears blog even though it's not about babies I know that the mother's would like it.